Sunday, August 20th, 2017 at 2:12P I received the following text from my Mommy - "I love you with all my heart." It was the last text message I would receive from the woman who struggled, sacrificed, suffered through the streets, the illness, and the weight of her own life, to offer me a better life than she had. Nothing will allow you to find gratitude like the loss of someone who gave you life.
I remember speaking to her earlier that day, as my sons, and my brother Jimmie listened on. . . Many years she spent in various treatments to ease the pain of the cancerous demon plaguing our lives. I couldn't believe that on this day, I would say the words I said, "You have suffered long enough Mommy. "We love you with all our hearts, and if you need to go, I want you to know, it's ok to go." All she needed was permission to stop suffering, the freedom to just let go, to drift into the light. I am grateful for the unselfish decisions which had to be made over and over again in my life and I would not take even one of them back. I am reminded of how patronizing life can be. I miss you everyday Linda Jiles. . . .I love you everyday. . . I will remember you everyday of my life. I will honor you the absolute best way I know how. You were more than just a Mommy, you were my friend, my confidant, and that was far more than I could ask for with all that our lives have seen. It hurts soo much but I am learning to live in your life instead of living in your death. Rest in Peace - #Walkinitthenknowit #painisreal #Notbyebutseeyoulater #SpeakResilience #BlogLife
I remember speaking to her earlier that day, as my sons, and my brother Jimmie listened on. . . Many years she spent in various treatments to ease the pain of the cancerous demon plaguing our lives. I couldn't believe that on this day, I would say the words I said, "You have suffered long enough Mommy. "We love you with all our hearts, and if you need to go, I want you to know, it's ok to go." All she needed was permission to stop suffering, the freedom to just let go, to drift into the light. I am grateful for the unselfish decisions which had to be made over and over again in my life and I would not take even one of them back. I am reminded of how patronizing life can be. I miss you everyday Linda Jiles. . . .I love you everyday. . . I will remember you everyday of my life. I will honor you the absolute best way I know how. You were more than just a Mommy, you were my friend, my confidant, and that was far more than I could ask for with all that our lives have seen. It hurts soo much but I am learning to live in your life instead of living in your death. Rest in Peace - #Walkinitthenknowit #painisreal #Notbyebutseeyoulater #SpeakResilience #BlogLife
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