Seeking out the Best Relationship of All

 I used to think that my time with God needed to be planned. I used to think that I had to read the bible cover to cover in order to have an understanding of His desires for my life.   In actuality, all I needed to do was listen and trust the peaceful, sound of His voice.  I read His word just because, I want to know more about my Daddy - the man who gave life ..... life.  The one who created me before the foundation of the world and knew me by name before I was knitted to my Mother's womb.  He wakes me before the sun and simply speaks to my heart, 'let's talk'.  It's the most beautiful thing ever......time with Him.  We don't have to talk about anything specific.....sometimes I don't have to say a word - just resting my thoughts in Him is wonderful.  Sometimes I just ask Him what He wants me to do and just sit and wait to hear what He says.  Sometimes I wonder what His day was like....saving the world from itself and all.  Then there are moments when I just have to tell Him whats on my mind....how to raise my boys a little better today, asking Him what to do for my Mom and how to be there for her because she needs me.  How to love everyone, even those who look at me and refuse to see who God says I am.  How do I know exactly how to be a role-model and a teacher....a business woman and a hard-working employee...to address my pride in not accepting the humanity in making mistakes....to allow God to heal the hurts of the past so that my future will not be stifled...to embrace those who persecute me without knowing me....to pray for those whose jealousy, envy and backbiting spirits are revealed like a display window's imperfections.....to repent for my sins, those with and without intent.....to follow as well as I lead...to be a courtship partner who values submittance and the proper place of prayer in a relationship...to dance for God and speak for God and whatever else He wants me to do.  Sometimes it all comes out and He listens, He instructs, He guides, He leads, He fulfills, He comforts, He provides, He edifies, He elevates, He protects, He imparts, He restores, He transforms, He rebuilds, He reminds me of who I am in Him.  Then I begin my day, asking Him what I should wear, what I should feed my children and which endeavor to tackle first in my lengthy list of things that must be done within the course of the day.  Spending time with God is not planned.....it's not rehearsed.....it's not a charade - it's automatic.  My hands are lifted in the freedom and beauty of who He is in my life..... spending time is a lifestyle.  I look forward to the beauty of spending my life with Him.